Faith and Doubt but I’m FULLY FUNDED!
The past few months have been a whirlwind of new countries, new cities, new people, new teams, etc. Emotions have been all over the place and while I’ve been absent from my blog writing, my brain has non stopped running with thoughts and revelations and prompts and stories for blogs. I don’t know fully why but I haven’t been able to sit still and finish writing a blog in order to post and update. It’s been a long few months but so growing. These past countries of Armenia, Turkey and Jordan have been my absolute favorite! I can’t wait to share more stories about them soon.
Right now, I’m in the capital of Jordan, Amman, after spending a few weeks staying with a sweet family in northern Jordan and before that we spent a week adventuring in southern Jordan. We visited Petra, the Dead Sea, Dana, Wadi Rum, Aqaba, and the Red Sea. (More on this country hopefully soon, as I loved this place and I am so sad leaving. It has felt like home.) Tonight we fly to Dubai, United Arab Emirates for a 20 hr layover before flying to Bishkek, Kyrgyzstan!
Okay getting back to the point of this blog… I’m FULLY FUNDED!!!
Thank you Jesus!!! And thank YOU!!
Looking back over the last year and a half of fundraising, I doubted that I would be able to raise enough for this trip. And to be honest, I couldn’t and I didn’t. It was God. Even in my moments of doubt, God provided. Unfortunately, I do this all the time, I doubt God and then He comes through with even better and bigger provisions and protection. He provided all that I needed and also through you, all my family, friends and supporters. THANK YOU for your continued support and encouragement.
I really want to be used by God in building His Kingdom even after the Race and with only 3 months left, I’ve been praying about what He has for me next. While I still don’t know His plan for me, I want to be ready for His call. Last month, I really struggled with believing that I had enough faith to follow God no matter what, that even if I was called to stay in my hometown or move across the world, I would have peace and trust that God has good things in store for me. I went through this whole spiral of being scared that I would be a Jonah, to run away from the calling that God has for me, but throughout the month of talking with God, my teammates, and mentors, etc. I know that when the call comes, I will be ready. God gives to those who ask. James 1:5-6 also says, “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given to you. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.”
In this, I was reminded of the story of Jesus when He walked on water and called out to Peter to come join Him. Peter stepped out onto the water, and while he kept his eyes on Christ, he stayed above the water. But then as the waves crashed and the storm blew around him, he looked around afraid and started sinking. He cried out to Jesus who reached out and grabbed his hand. Then He said to Peter that he had little faith and why would he doubt. (Matthew 14:22-33)
Even when the storms and struggles come we should have faith in Him. Hebrews 11:1 explains what it means to have faith. It says, “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” He has shown over and over how He is faithful in providing, protecting, guiding, etc. and I know that through Him, I will always be sustained and satisfied.
More about my adventures from the last few months soon!
Love, Clara Grace
